I’ll forever remember
… yesterday, June 25.
It was the very first time I didn’t take Sophia to school. You see, since she started toddler classes at a play-based toddler school when she was almost 2 years old, I made it a point to take her to class. All other activities or classes too like The Little Gym and Gymboree, I was with her. Never missed a class. And so, yesterday was a first for me and I didn’t take it well.
I HAD SEPARATION ANXIETY.
I was literally holding my tears back while I was taking her inside the car with her yaya and the driver. She, on the other hand, didn’t have any hint of sadness at all which made me want to cry all the more. SUSME, ano ba ito? Could it be the pregnancy hormones or what?
When she shouted “Goodbye, Mommy!” with hands waving while the car was about to go, I couldn’t hold it any longer. I ran inside the house and wept. I called the husband and continued to cry over the phone. Crazy, isn’t it? OA, ano?
But things are better now. I have managed to accept the fact that I cannot be with her all the time and besides she needs to be on her own every once in a while. It’s both for our own good. After all, Ill be having another baby soon so we both need this so we can adjust. I’ll still take her to school maybe twice or thrice a week though but everyday is not feasible anymore because three hours in Starbucks every morning each day will do me no good. Malls are still closed by the time she’s in school so I have nowhere to go.
Hay, another mommy moment for the books.
7 Comments
1. jody commented on June 26, 2008 at 10:10 pm
Hahahah! Ganyan talaga ang ina! Cheers to us!
2. peachy commented on June 27, 2008 at 2:34 pm
jane , sa drama na to, ka join mo ko.. alam mo ba sa gabi umiiyak ako thinking kung pano na si joaqui pag nasa labor room ako til i give birth.. LOL.. OA nga! So ang sinabi ko na talga kay gelo, once im rushed to the hospital, kasama dapat c joaqui. actually ako din yung sad whenever we leave him at home like during my check ups.
Like din ksi ni Gelo na maka adjust ako and si joaqui.. oh well .. lets hope for the best once our new babies arrives.
3. I need him more than he needs me | ~ life is peachy ~ commented on June 27, 2008 at 3:25 pm
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4. abie commented on June 29, 2008 at 11:33 am
naku sis, ganyan ata talaga ang ina…kaya di OA yan…lalo ka na, sanay na 24/7 kasama si sophia…pero its good na sinasanay mo na sya (or ikaw) sa bagong setup ngayon pa lang…para when the 2nd baby comes adjusted na kayo pareho…
btw sis, ia have a tag for you:
http://www.myplanetpurple.com/2008/06/simple-healing-prayer.html
5. agnes commented on June 30, 2008 at 2:12 pm
hello jane, now it is my turn to be a mommy maybe I will also experience the separation anxiety with baby Kiara. anyways your experiences with sophia will help me a lot.
6. joy commented on June 30, 2008 at 2:18 pm
Know what Jane, I really like the way you devote your time to Sophia. Very hands on mommy ka talaga, wala ako masabi
Dapat talaga masanay ka na now that the new little one is coming. Si Sophie sanay na eh 
7. I’ll forever remember commented on July 02, 2008 at 8:33 pm
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